I feel like I need to make a correction to my last post:
It is difficult to be happy for people I don't know, it is far easier to be happy for friends and family who are expecting.
I had the pleasure of meeting the newest addition to our family on Sunday. Baby Hannah is absolutely beautiful! It's been a good year and a half since we've had a newborn in the family (for our family, that's a long time). It's amazing to see just how little they really are. Cute as a button and radiates heat when you hold her. (Which did not stop me from stealing her for a good hour to snuggle.)
As I'm holding this precious little girl in my arms, embracing the sweet powder smell, I am at peace. I'm not upset, emotional, hurt, nothing. Not one ounce of jealousy is raising through my head. I am calm, happy for my cousin and her family.
Baby Hannah has some how renewed my hopes and prepared me for the next round of IVF. I am going to continue to assume that the little lady has given us some luck.
A week from today I begin the second round of Lupron. Please continue to pray for us as we attempt this again.