Round Two

A weeks vacation! The perfect way to start round two. Hubby and I just celebrated our 5th anniversary, so we headed north for a little R&R. (If you have yet to visit Stowe, VT, especially Trapp Family Lodge, I strongly recommend you put it on your bucket list. Breathtaking views, organic farms, and vegan friendly restaurants. I'm in heaven!)

Monday morning we took an early morning drive to S. Burlington to complete some blood work. The nurse was lovely. Sweet woman that shared a personal story of her conceiving experience. I am slowly starting to see that every woman has a story. Some are happy, some are not so happy, but all have ended with a precious little child. Here's my story:

For the past several months, before we really knew of the difficulty we would have conceiving, I like every other woman peed on a stick 5 days before my period was due. (A little eager, I know.) There have been several times that I would have a faint or light line appear. If you actually read the package, like I did, you will notice that even a faint line is considered a positive. I would then try again a day or two later, and the line would slowly start to disappear. These are called chemical pregnancies. (50% of pregnancies end in miscarriage.) A chemical pregnancy is when you first conceive, but for whatever reason, it quickly terminates. It is extremely discouraging to the point where it starts to convince you that you are crazy. But I checked with my doctor, and she agrees most likely, that is whats happening to me.

This past weekend, it happened again. I had the darkest line I had ever seen, but Monday's blood work stated I was not pregnant and could begin the Lupron again. So here I am, 7 days after starting and I actually feel great. I am going to guess that not taking the pill has something to do with it. I am having no cravings, I'm not emotional, completely different than last time. I am however noticing some irritability and lack of appetite. I woke up yesterday with a rash on my neck, chest, and one arm & shoulder. Putting a call into the doctor today because it has yet to disappear. I am praying it is not an allergic reaction to the medication, I do not want another interruption.

On a side note for my family: Friday afternoon as hubby and I were getting in the car there was an enormous rainbow that filled the sky directly in front of us. I am taking that as a sign that this time feels different, because it will be different. Always good to have people looking over us! Hugs and kisses