One of the hardest things I've found this round, is how inconsistent my side effects are. Yesterday morning I was wired. Couldn't stop moving. Couldn't sit still. Racing through the morning. Today however, I feel like I got hit by a truck. I didn't want to get out of bed. I wanted to hide under the covers until at least noon.
Is this how moms feel?
Never enough sleep?
Exhausted all day?
Wanting to lock your bedroom door and hide in bed all day?
Becoming a mom will be a huge shock to me. This much I know. I love sleep. Each night consists of anywhere from 8 to 10 hours. I'm not kidding. I don't function unless I get at the very least 8 hours. So how am I going to handle a newborn that's up every couple of hours? And what if we have multiples?! Lord, help me!
You'd think after 4 years of trying to conceive, I would have accepted all these things. But I haven't. I still worry how I'll function. I still worry about money. I worry about not being able to stay home with my kids. (Something I know a lot of parents struggle with.) Will I want to be home all day with my kids? Alone....all day?
As awful as I feel saying that out loud, I'm guessing I'm not alone. How do you keep your sanity? Do you find working helps? Do you struggle to leave for work every morning, kissing your kids goodbye?
So much for not getting ahead of myself.