Now most of you will probably think I've lost my marbles, maybe I have. But the lack of success in the baby making department has left me feeling sporatic and pretty grateful for all the other blessings in my life. The lack of responsibility for another human being kind of feels nice right now. (That probably sounded really selfish.) I've been able to meet friends for drinks (thank goodness), shop (very therapeutic if you ask me) and I've been able to purchase a fun little summer car. Yup, the girl who's dying to get pregnant, bought a MINI Cooper Convertible. What can I say, I'm enjoying life. After months of heart attack and far too many losses to experience in six months, I said f*ck it and bought myself a treat. You can fit a baby in a MINI, right?!
Yesterday was easier to get through than I thought it would be. I kept myself busy by hosting a Mother's Day cookout for our Moms and my sister. Between food shopping, prepping and hosting, my day was exhausting. But the sole feeling I embraced all day, is that some day, someone will be doing this for me. Now whether "our time" comes sooner or later, I must say, I'm pretty content with my life right now. I am a true believer in everything happens for a reason. (Sometimes easier to embrace than other times.) But I'm starting to feel like things are coming together. I was able to find a full time job, which I'm enjoying. Hubby and I have seen an increase in finances, which will hopefully increase again in the next month. We've done alot of talking and figuring out where we are in our lives, and where we want to be. All in all, I'm happy. And I think that says alot.