Where's the Tears?

Okay, so tripling the dose of estrogen is no where near as bad as the double dose was. Estrace is a small little blue pill that's like swallowing a crumb. 20 days prior to transfer, I was told to start taking estrace, an estrogen replacement pill. For 5 days I took 1 pill twice a day. On morning of day 6, I went in for blood work to determine if my levels were increasing appropriately. They were. Day 6 I started taking two pills twice a day. And with that came the flood of emotions. I cried every day while on this dose. For those of you who know me, know it's rare that a tear will find it's way out, especially for 4 days in a row.

Saturday was day 9. I returned to the office for more bloodwork. Again, my levels increased accordingly. Day 10 (Sunday), I began taking three pills three times a day. Assuming I'd be sobbing uncontrollably, I was cautious to take any outings. Oddly enough, the triple dose has not had an affect on me, and for some reason I seem happier. Now whether this is from the little blue pill, or that we are only a week away from our second endeavor, it doesn't matter; happy is happy.

There's still alot being left to chance. As I've previously stated, we have two little embryos waiting for a home. After weeks of discussing every possible outcome and possibility, we have decided to transfer just one this time. This decision was solely based on the doctor's recommendation and we believe it to be the right one. I had not realized that implanting two could potentially mean the outcome of four babies. (If each embryo were to split, there's only a 1% chance of that, [but 1% is 1%].)So, we made the decision to implant just one little one, praying that they have the chance to grow into a beautiful little person.

So what's being left to chance? There's the possibility that the morning of the transfer, after a month of preparing, one or both of the embryos can potentially not unfreeze properly. So with that being said, I'm remaining as positive as possible. Hoping and praying that this will bless us with the outcome we've been waiting for.

Just to run you through a frozen cycle:
Days 1-5: 1 Estrace, twice a day
Days 6-9: 2 Estrace, twice a day
Days 10-13: 3 Estrace, three times a day
Days 14-20: 2 Estrace, twice a day, begin Progesterone shots
Approx. Day 20: Embryo transfer day