Time for a change.

Hubby was not happy to see the words "Semen Analysis" plastered on Facebook. Figured a formal appology was necessary.

Sorry Hubby.

I disappeared, as I had warned you all. I've been avoiding everything baby related. Wanting nothing to do with seeing, discussing or planning for children. After the panic attack, I figured it was truly time to take a giant step back and focus on other things.

As I prepared to invest my time in other things, I of course get a sinus infection. Which limited my running last week, to nothing. Can't breath = no run. Thankfully, it's almost over. By getting sick, I realized I haven't been treating my body well lately. After surgery this past July, I began eating vegetarian instead of vegan. Hoping my body could handle the change, I gave it 6 months. I stopped eating ridiculous amounts of veggies and started eating white breads and sugars again.

It didn't work. My body hates all things animal related or bleached white. Besides gaining 20lbs back, my stomach has once again been swollen, bloated and (brace yourself) I've been having irregular bowel movements. What's a girl to do? Change. (Because I seem to be obsessed with change.)

Unlike last time, this isn't happening over night, but I am going back to vegan. I cringe because I've forgotten how to do it. Dairy really is in everything. It's quite hard to avoid. But I love to cook, and am hoping with the change will bring back that passion. Along with healthy meals, little spending on eating out and a significant drop in weight. (Praying it's like last time.)

Where to begin? I started with a cleanse. For those of you who can't handle poop talk, just stop reading. Saturday, since it was snowing and we rarely take a day to do nothing, hubby and I hunkered down and flushed out our systems while watching 2 seasons of United States of Tara. He really wanted to do a smoothie cleanse, flushing and replacing. I wanted everything out of my body so I could start fresh. I won.

For $2.19 you can purchase a bottle of lemon flavored magnesium citrate. Pick up some chamomile tea and be ready to run. We started around 9am and by the evening our systems were empty. I woke up Sunday morning feeling fabulous. Stomach was flat and hungry. I made a hemp protein smoothie with lots of berries and some kale. Knowing that we'd be meeting the in-laws for breakfast, I didn't want to indulge in eggs. So the smoothie was a perfect start to the day. At the farm (breakfast place), I had 2 pieces of their home made wheat toast with honey and cinnamon on top. I did flounder in the afternoon while watching the game (Go Pats!) and snacked on some lactose free cheese. Belly immediately swelled.

So today I embarked on a dairy free day. So far so good. Same delicious smoothie for breakfast. Chipotle vegetarian burrito bowl for lunch. Apple for my snack. And after work I'm praying I can get my fat ass to the gym. Wish me luck.

*Want any tips on smoothies, eating vegan, cleansing? Let me know. I'll be happy to share.